The Janice Dickinson Modeling Agency
I need to clear the air. When we shot the last day, I was sicker than I have ever been in my life. So for everyone to go on and on about how weird I was is just stupid. You try being filmed every second of your life for weeks and weeks, and then work twenty hours every day. Honey, if you’re not a b*tch after that then you are a saint.
My only problem was the lack of aptitude that was shown by my idiotic models. I don’t know what was more insulting -- the fact that I gave them this opportunity and they choose to make a brothel out of my house, or my agency that was once a dream but became a D-List joke.
I can only blame myself for having a dream that’s unattainable in a California market. Los Angeles fashion is the Starbucks of the modeling world. It’s going to be a long time for anything that comes close to Paris. I don’t know if it was a combination of the worlds I got from Lizzy or my gays, but something made me feel more sure that it was time to make a drastic change and go to New York.
As far as the spying goes I want to make it clear that I never probed into my models' lives for the sake of drama, but to see why they were not becoming the models I had put so much time and effort into them becoming. I have to admit that it burns me that they could look me in the eye and tell me they wanted to become models. And let's just say... the truth was they were looking for a spin-off or looking for their acting careers. That is exactly why I sent Traci packing. I know there was a lot of love for Traci out there and I’m sure the boys like how much she gets around but someone who puts all their effort into hooking up instead of working out and becoming a real model is someone who obviously is on the fast-rack to becoming the next big "Gossip Girl."
It’s simple. People really want to find the next great supermodel and not the next "I Love New York" and "Hogan Knows Best" or some tramp from "Rock of Love." VH1 has cornered that market. I am here because I believe fashion in its own way can truly change the world. That is why Reality Cares was such an embarrassing event for me.
It aggravates me to the no end that I was portrayed as crazy and maybe hormonal. I don’t know why in society when a woman demands perfection she is called crazy. I was mad that all I had to offer were these starter models. Even models that I've spoken about in the past, like Crystal, were disappointing. On top of everything, JP came to the realization that he is far too wise and long in the tooth to be playing the modeling game. I guess I should be happy that I am going to New York with JP at my side to become my best booker. All of this was a real turning point for me. I saw that none of the improvements that I thought would be made by having this modeling house and living with my models had ultimately made any difference.
I guess it doesn't come to any surprise that I got rid of the plus size division. It comes down to this: I am not in it for profit. I am in it for passion. Plus size modeling is not my passion. Call me what you will, but that’s that and I am glad it’s over.
This change definitely taught my models that there are few certainties in the lifespan of a model and you should never believe your position in the fashion world is permanent. If you ever think you have a permanent place in the world of fashion you have already become "so last season." Reinvention is the key to surviving this fashion industry. Madonna is the perfect example of reinvention. She has taken something that is so little and turned herself into a legend by simply never staying the same. Every model -- if they are going to become a supermodel rather than a top model -- already knows this. So now after all this, I know in taking this leap of faith and one big bite of the Big Apple I will finally come full circle and have the boutique Parisian agency that will only represent true supermodels -- because who else other than the world’s first supermodel could do something like that? It will be an exciting journey and I am so glad to know you will be coming along with me.