The Janice Dickinson Modeling Agency
Being surrounded by some teenagers in the Model house was really difficult for me because I always surround myself with people who are older, mature, and intelligent. I just had to play along with them sometimes.
I was amused when I finally learned that several models were so excited to date each other and became very jealous of each other. Jealousy is not a good thing. I was thinking, "What the hell are we doing here in the first place?" This place is not where you just go and hook up with other models. That kind of behavior can be found at high school. I wanted to laugh so hard. Hysterically.
Especially with Sorin and Chandler - it was so ridiculous. To be so frank with you guys, Chandler is nice but he can be very manipulative, condescending, and aggressive at some points. It is just an observation that I've had in several weeks.
I am sure that you may have noticed that I was feeling kind of lost and I was disappointed when my interpreter wasn't able to come to the house or to stay the night with me. When I was associating with other models in the house, I told myself, "It's going to be nothing but a fiasco."
But I surprised myself by succeeding with some models in the house. I really didn't have any problem, because I was basically "working" so hard. That is one of the reasons why I avoided being in the crowd. That'd be too much for me. Truthfully, I wanted to cry and leave the house immediately. But I realized that I have to be very strong, faithful, and most importantly, never let myself weaken because of my deafness.
And then I just had my flashbacks of those wonderful people in my life who have been so supportive of me and believed in me, no matter what. I immediately changed to all good thoughts. Positive ones! Because the universe is responding to me, what I wanted the most. Immediately, I was seeing the better result in no time! I was so relieved and very excited to continue my time in the model house.