Cameron on The Glee Project 107
I was pretty dang nervous when I saw the theme was sexuality. I wasn’t surprised though because I knew something like that was bound to happen. The word sexuality doesn’t bother me I’m just not used to portraying it. After being in the bottom three so much, I wasn’t quite ready to give up yet.
The homework assignment was definitely interesting haha. Everyone seemed so comfortable with it, but I was like the little kid in the corner that had just been told Santa doesn’t exist. I don’t want you guys to get the notion that I can't be sexy though. I can be sexy. I'm just not used to playing a sexy character.
The “Teenage Dream” music video was honestly the most fun I had on the entire show. Hannah was amazing to work with, and it definitely made it less awkward. She's one of the coolest and funniest people I've ever met in my life. I still think about that food fight and how disgusting it really was. Hannah cracked an eggshell on my head and it stayed on me the entire shoot!
Hannah and I actually talked about kissing beforehand, and I told her I wouldn’t do it if they asked. She understood, and I just knew from the last time it would be better for me if I didn’t. Hannah is one of my best friends so it wouldn’t have been awkward, but I drew a line and I wasn’t going to cross it. Kissing is special, and maybe in the future it won't sting as bad as it does now, but for me it's something I felt like was right. And when you think something is right, you have to stick by it. Everyone has boundaries. It keeps us sane. No matter who or what you believe in, you have to stand by something. You need something to believe in. I believe in myself, and I knew I was making the right decision for myself.
Honestly, to be in the bottom three again was absolutely heartbreaking. I kind of felt like it was the end of the road for me. It was the fifth time I was in the bottom, and it is so mentally and physically draining. The weird thing though was that I was okay with it. I tried my hardest and gave everything I have, and if it wasn’t good enough, I could sleep well knowing I gave everything I could to get where I am. A strange peace swept over me when I was in that room. It felt like home haha.
The judges criticism was absolutely spot on. I understood everything they were saying about how sometimes you have to step outside of your morals, to play a part. All along I knew it was going to be a struggle, and I knew exactly what they were going to say. Watching the episode I can tell that they were honestly rooting for me and were sad to see me in the bottom. Sometimes in life you have to hear things you don’t necessarily want to hear, but it makes you a better performer and a better person.
As hard as it is to say, I did deserve to be there. I felt like I did a good job on the video, it’s just that the others did better. They looked so good. I don’t feel like not kissing Hannah went against me at all. They respected my boundaries. I just didn’t perform as well as I should have. I was ready to face Ryan Murphy again.
I want people to know that I didn’t go into this week already deciding to quit. It was a decision that I made after the week was over and I was talking to Ryan. It was such a journey up to this point, and after it was all said and done I knew it was time for me to go. Damian, Hannah, Alex, Lindsay, and Sam all worked hard to get to this point and I wasn’t going to take it away from them. I know a lot of people won't understand this decision, and I don’t expect you to, but it was a decision that was right for me. “Glee” is awesome and ground-breaking, but for this boy, maybe it's just not time yet. Also, don’t think it's because of a kiss that I left. It just felt like it was time to move on, and sometimes in life the right decision isn't always the easiest. I have huge plans and you never know, I might still end up on “Glee” one day! Greater things are yet to come, you wait and see.
Regrets? Absolutely not. Although it was one of the hardest decisions I've ever had to make, it was the right one. I can't regret standing up for myself. I hope my decision can truly show people that it's okay and right to stand up for yourself if you believe it, even if the spotlight is on you. I've always learned that when one door closes another one opens. That’s what life is all about. Making decisions. I absolutely loved my time on the show. Nikki, Robert, Zach, and Ryan opened my eyes to see to a new world, and I could never thank them enough for it. You can't get experience like this in a lesson. It's the real world, and these are real people. Just the fact that I met so many amazing people keeps me from regretting any decision I've made. Damian is the kind of friend people spend their entire lives trying to find. Our friendship will last a lifetime. Who else's accent could I ever make fun of?! Hannah is one of the most genuine and courageous friends I've ever met. She is like a sister, and I can always go to her in a time of need. I'll always stick to my guns and you should too. You will learn things about yourself that you never knew was possible. Trust me, nerds stick up for themselves. If you do, it will change your life.
Click here to watch Cameron's extended exit interview.