I love my #TeamMarissa fans!
Dear amazing fans,
I simply don't know where to start. "Thank you" just doesn't seem to cover it.
It seems like only yesterday I was studying for my Biology tests at school, picking up cocktail waitress shifts to earn some extra cash, or lying on my bed trying to figure out what direction my life was taking. Never in my wildest dreams did I think The Glee Project would answer that question for me.
I honestly cannot say what I ever did to deserve this Cinderella story that has suddenly become my life, which is why I am so humbled by the fortune that has befallen me. Being chosen as 1 of 12 out of a pool of over 40,000 applicants, I feel unquestionably lucky, but anxious as well. Anxious, because I am aware that this opportunity I have been given is similar to the dreams many of you have. Therefore, to give anything less than my best would have been a major discredit to you guys, and I don't want to let anybody down!
That being said, I know I will not be able to impress and please everybody. I know I am not perfect, not as a performer, nor as a person. I've done things in the past that I'm not proud of, and I've shared it with all of you recently. I am a notoriously private person, so exposing my innermost demon was the hardest thing I have ever had to do. In addition, I am a very sensitive person, so it's been terrifying for me to consider the likelihood that some people will be unkind in response to it.
Yet, I am so fortunate to have received quite the opposite response! I never expected to see such tremendous support from all of you! I am continually baffled by the barrage of compliments and well-wishing I get on a day-to-day basis! I read ALL of it, and though sometimes it takes me a while to respond to everyone, I want every single person who has ever written me to know that your words of encouragement and kindness are treasured! It really, truly makes a difference.
Nothing has had a deeper and more personal impact on me than the individual stories I have heard from some of you -- boys and girls alike -- about the struggles you've endured surrounding body image and eating disorders. I can’t believe that my decision to expose my own vulnerability has inspired some of you to get help and make changes in your own lives. I am so incredibly humbled by this. I could cry knowing that I have had the ability to make a difference on this scale and affect the lives of so many people like me. It has made me so sad to see the commonality of this issue, but at the same time, it has given me strength to know that we are all not alone.
Each day, I become increasingly more beholden to my fans as you grow in number and support. It's as if you all have treated my personal journey and my dream as your own, and it means the world to me!
You guys are honestly the best!
Thank you from the bottom of my heart,
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