Kid Cudi Pens Open Letter About Being Depressed And Suicidal, Checks Into Rehab
“I deserve to be happy and smiling. Why not me?"
Musician Kid Cudi - who caused a bit of drama last month after publicly calling out Drake and Kanye West on Twitter - penned an open letter to fans on Facebook late Tuesday night explaining that he was voluntarily checking himself into rehab to deal with his issues of anxiety, depression, and suicidal urges.
He writes in part, “It’s been difficult for me to find the words to what I’m about to share with you because I feel ashamed. Ashamed to be a leader and hero to so many while admitting I've been living a lie. It took me awhile to get to this place of commitment, but it is something I have to do for myself, my family, my best friend/daughter and all of you, my fans.”
He goes on to say that he hasn’t felt peace in his life and was coming to a place where he feared he might self-harm. His anxiety was even keeping him from leaving the house. He says, “I deserve to be happy and smiling. Why not me? I guess I give so much of myself to others I forgot that I need to show myself some love too. I think I never really knew how. Im scared, im sad, I feel like I let a lot of people down and again, I’m sorry. It’s time I fix me. I’m nervous but ima get through this.”
Cudi promises that his new album is still coming and he’s hoping to be feeling better in time for a November event he has planned called ComplexCon, signing off with, “I love you, Scott Mescudi.”
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Fans have been very supportive in the comments, though some are disparaging the use of medication for treating depression. Listen, when you’re worried you might hurt yourself, medication can be a tool to pull you away from those feelings so you can function. No one should be disparaged for trying save their own lives. Anxiety and depression are terrible conditions and anyone struggling with them should do whatever they need to to get well. Kid Cudi is brave to come forward about his condition, and we wish him well.
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