Jay Z is on a roll. After spending years being notoriously tight-lipped about his personal life, he goes and releases 4:44, an album that contains all kinds of commentary on personal matters like his marriage to Beyonce, his friendship with Kanye West, and even that crazy elevator fight with Solange back in 2014.
Jay got even more candid in a recently released mini documentary for his new album called Footnotes for 4:44. The 11-minute video features commentary about relationships from famous men like Chris Rock, Kendrick Lamar, and Will Smith.
"This is my real life," Jay said. "I just ran into this place and we built this big, beautiful mansion of a relationship that wasn't totally built on the 100 percent truth and it starts cracking."
"Things start happening that the public can see," he added. "Then we had to get to a point of 'OK, tear this down and let's start from the beginning.' It's the hardest thing I've ever done."
The rapper went on to share a meaningful memory of a time when he found himself surprised by his own feelings. (Though he doesn't mention Bey by name, it's pretty obvious that he's talking about her.)
"I was on a boat, and I had the best time," Jay said. "I was like, ‘Man, this is great.' Then she had to leave. I was, like, crushed. 'Man, I don't even feel like this. What is happening to my body right now?' I don't even feel like this. Did I just say, 'Don't leave?'"
Jay later explained his reasoning for making sure his wife listened to 4:44 in its entirety before releasing it to the world.
"We've been in that space where we just got to the place that in order for this to work, it can't be fake — not once," he explained. "I'm not saying it wasn't uncomfortable because obviously it was, but because we've been doing it for so long it was less uncomfortable."
Jay's album and the accompanying visual footnotes are currently streaming on Tidal, but you can check out a preview below.
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