Jay Z's Mom Gloria Carter Opens Up About Coming Out On '4:44' Song

"Smile" is a powerful song for both Jay and his mother.

By Sharon Lynn Pruitt

Jay Z4:44 wasn't just a big deal because it was basically his response to Lemonade; the album also had special meaning for Jay's mother, Gloria Carter.

In case you missed it, Jay raps about his mother having to keep her sexuality a secret for years on the song "Smile."

"Mama had four kids, but she's a lesbian / Had to pretend so long that she's a thespian," he raps. The song even features an original poem by Gloria, which contains moving lines like, "Living in the shadow feels like the safe place to be / No harm for them, no harm for me / But life is short, and it's time to be free / Love who you love, because life isn't guaranteed."

Heavy stuff, right? Gloria recently opened up about what it was like coming out to her son, New York Daily News reports.

"Me and my son, we share a lot of information. I was sitting there and I was telling him one day, I just finally started telling him who I was," she told the D'USSE Friday podcast earlier this week. "Besides your mother, this is the person that I am. This is the life that I live. My son started actually tearing 'cause he's like, 'That had to be a horrible life, Ma.' I was like, 'My life was never horrible. It was just different.' So that made him want to do a song about it."

Gloria actually wasn't feeling Jay's song at first, explaining, "When it first happened, I was sharing myself with [Jay], not to share myself with the world. I was like, 'I don't know if I'm ready for that.'"

She later changed her tune, eventually writing her poem and recording it for the track.

"I'm tired of all the mystery," she said. "I'm gonna give it to them. I don't have to worry about anybody wondering if I'm in the life or not. I'm gonna tell them. So now that I told you what do you have to talk about? So now maybe you can focus on the phenomenal things I do."

Amen, sis.

[Photo: Getty Images]

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