Remember Rachel Dolezal, the white activist and African American scholar who had pretended to be black her whole life? After a public scandal and humiliation, Dolezal has recently revealed that her life is now in shambles. That being said, she's also not apologizing for anything.
In an extensive interview with The Guardian — which reveals that Dolezal is currently jobless, near-homeless, and feeding her family with food stamps — Dolezal speaks about the kinds challenges she now faces: "There’s nobody saying, 'Well, that’s racist if you say that about Rachel,' or ‘That’s sexist if you say that about Rachel.' There’s no protected class for me. I’m this generic, ambiguous scapegoat for white people to call me a race traitor and take out their hostility on. And I’m a target for anger and pain about white people from the black community. It’s like I am the worst of all these worlds.”
Dolezal says she's applied to hundreds of jobs ranging from university positions to retail work. Although she's changed her name, people still recognize her and often laugh at her in public.
Despite the public shaming, Rachel is sticking to her controversial ideology: "[Race is] socially constructed as a world view, and people operate within it, but that also means that it can be reconstructed or deconstructed," she says. "And this was a great awakening for me, because it meant I wasn’t forced to own whiteness. It wasn’t like the honest thing to do is say, ‘I’m white’, because race is a social construct. And this gave me this great sense of internal freedom: I wasn’t actually all f*cked up. I was actually on to something this whole time.”
“Have I had experiences by other people identifying me as black and behaving towards me as black? Yes. Just for as long as maybe somebody who was born categorized as black? No.”
Despite feeling incredibly hurt by her rejection from the black community, Dolezal is not saying sorry for anything: "I don’t. I don’t think you can do something wrong with your identity if you’re living in your authenticity, and I am. If I thought it was wrong, I would admit it. That’s easy to do, especially in America. Every politician, they’re like, ‘I’m sorry’ and then they just move on and everybody’s like, ‘Oh, they apologized and it’s all good’. Five minutes later, nobody remembers it. I’m not going to stoop and apologise and grovel and feel bad about it. I would just be going back to when I was little, and had to be what everybody else told me I should be – to make them happy."
Dolezal plans on sharing her life story in her upcoming memoir, titled In Full Color.
You can read the full interview over here.