In a new interview with Newsweek, Prince Harry opened up about the depression he felt following his mother Princess Diana’s death, saying he came close to having a breakdown several times, only healing through therapy.
“My mother died when I was very young. I didn't want to be in the position I was in, but I eventually pulled my head out of the sand, started listening to people and decided to use my role for good. I am now fired up and energized and love charity stuff, meeting people and making them laugh,” he says in the profile, in which Newsweek was given access to Prince Harry for almost a year. “I sometimes still feel I am living in a goldfish bowl, but I now manage it better. I still have a naughty streak too, which I enjoy and is how I relate to those individuals who have got themselves into trouble.”
That trouble, for Harry, included wearing a Nazi outfit to a costume party and partying naked in Las Vegas when he was younger. He said that he was traumatized by his mother’s death and the very public mourning process that followed.
“My mother had just died, and I had to walk a long way behind her coffin, surrounded by thousands of people watching me while millions more did on television,” he said. “I don’t think any child should be asked to do that, under any circumstances. I don’t think it would happen today.”
Harry, who lives in a two-bedroom cottage on the grounds of Kensington Palace, claims he lives a normal life for a royal.
“My mother took a huge part in showing me an ordinary life, including taking me and my brother to see homeless people. Thank goodness I’m not completely cut off from reality. People would be amazed by the ordinary life William and I live. I do my own shopping. Sometimes, when I come away from the meat counter in my local supermarket, I worry someone will snap me with their phone. But I am determined to have a relatively normal life, and if I am lucky enough to have children, they can have one too,” he said. “Even if I was king, I would do my own shopping.”
It is part of Harry’s desire, he claims, of modernizing the monarchy—a goal he shares with Prince William, who will likely be king someday. Part of this, he says, has been being forthright about his own struggles with mental health.
He is, he says, in a hurry “to make something of my life. I feel there is just a smallish window when people are interested in me before [William’s children] take over, and I’ve got to make the most of it.”
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