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Chrissy Teigen Reveals Her Battle With Postpartum Depression In Personal Essay

"I also just didn’t think it could happen to me..."

Chrissy Teigen has it all. The supermodel seems happy with a thriving career, awesome husband in John Legend and adorable daughter, Luna, who was born last year. But beneath the surface, she's been suffering postpartum depression. The 31-year-old opened up to Glamour in a personal essay about her battle.

"I seem like the happiest person on the planet," she writes. "I had everything I needed to be happy. And yet, for much of the last year, I felt unhappy." Teigen says that she had a great pregnancy with daughter Luna but she always felt depressed. "But I was different than before. Getting out of bed to get to set on time was painful. My lower back throbbed; my ­shoulders—even my wrists—hurt. I didn’t have an appetite. I would go two days without a bite of food, and you know how big of a deal food is for me. One thing that really got me was just how short I was with people."

She initially thought that her unhappiness was just part of being a new mom. "I couldn’t figure out why I was so unhappy. I blamed it on being tired and possibly growing out of the role: 'Maybe I’m just not a goofy person anymore. Maybe I’m just supposed to be a mom.'"

Teigen was eventually diagnosed with postpartum depression by her doctor and she's still grappling with coming to terms. "I also just didn’t think it could happen to me. I have a great life. I have all the help I could need: John, my mother (who lives with us), a nanny. But postpartum does not discriminate. I couldn’t control it. And that’s part of the reason it took me so long to speak up: I felt selfish, icky, and weird saying aloud that I’m struggling. Sometimes I still do."

She has been seeing a therapist and is on antidepressants now. "I’m speaking up now because I want people to know it can happen to anybody and I don’t want people who have it to feel embarrassed or to feel alone." 

Read Chrissy's entire essay here.

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