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Britney Spears’ Mom Fires Back Saying She ‘Tried My Best’ After Singer Releases Bombshell Audio

Britney Spears claimed in the shocking 22-minute audio clip that she became like a “robot” while under the conservatorship controlled by her father and criticized her mother Lynne and other family members for refusing to intervene.

By Jill Sederstrom
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Britney Spears’ mom Lynne is firing back after the singer released a bombshell 22-minute audio clip, saying her family “literally killed me” during the years she was under a conservatorship controlled by her father.

“Britney, your whole life I have tried my best to support your dreams and wishes! And also, I have tried my best to help you out of hardships!,” Lynne Spears wrote in a message on Instagram along with a photo of the pair. “I have never and will never turn my back on you! Your rejections to the countless times I have flown out and calls make me feel hopeless! I have tried everything. I love you so much, but this talk is for you and me only, eye to eye, in private. ❤️🙏

Lynne wrote the public message Sunday in response to audio Spears had released in a now-deleted tweet to a link on YouTube—which has since been set to private—detailing her years-long experience under the conservatorship and criticizing her family for failing to intervene.

“They literally killed me. They threw me away. That’s what I felt like. My family threw me away,” Spears said, according to “Rolling Stone.”

While Spears said she’s been approached by members of the media, including Oprah Winfrey, to share her story, she opted to detail her own account of the alleged years of abuse under her father’s control in a voice memo she released on her own.

“I get nothing out of sharing all of this,” she said. “I have offers to do interviews with Oprah and so many people – lots and lots of money. But it’s insane. I don’t want any of it. For me, it’s beyond a sit-down proper interview.”

Spears—who was freed from the conservatorship by a Los Angeles judge in October—said she initially remained silent because she was “scared of the judgment” and “the embarrassment of the whole thing” but decided to open up now because he was feeling more confident and wanted to help others.

“How can I mend this if I don’t talk about this?” she asked. “I have an amazing song right now with one of the most brilliant men of our time, and I’m so grateful, but if you’re a weird introvert oddball like me, who feels alone a lot of the time and you needed to hear a story like this today so you don’t feel alone, know this: my life has been far from easy and you’re not alone.”

Spears released her first new music, a collaboration with Elton John on the song “Hold Me Closer,” on Friday after a six-year hiatus, according to CNN.

According to Spears, her troubles began when she was 25 years old and was getting press at the time for her run-ins with the paparazzi.

Britney Spears and Lynne Spears attend the 42nd Annual Grammy Awards Pre-Part

“I was extremely young,” she said, according to Billboard. “I honestly still to this day don’t know what I really did, but the punishment of my father … I wasn’t able to, you know, see anyone or anything. You have to imagine none of it made sense to me.”

Spears said she had been having a sleep-over with two girlfriends and a close friend of her mom’s when she said the next day a SWAT team and three helicopters descended on her home and she was put into an ambulance where she was held down on a gurney.

Literally the extent of my ‘madness’ was playing chase with paparazzi, which is still to this day one of the most fun things I ever did about being famous,” she said. “I don’t know what was so harmful about that.”

Spears said she believes the move had been “premeditated” by her father after she used a British accent to talk to a doctor about her medication a few days earlier. She said the incident gave her family enough evidence to justify an involuntary hospitalization in 2008 and led to the initial emergency conservatorship.

“I know now it was all premeditated,” she said, referring to the conservatorship, which ultimately remained in place for 13 years. “A woman introduced the idea to my dad, and my mom actually helped him follow through and made it all happen. It was all basically set up. There was no drugs in my system, no alcohol, nothing. It was pure abuse.”

She described her father as someone who “loved to control everything I did” and said he had been “really abusive” to her brother as well.

Under her father’s control, she said she “started working right away” and was forced to make regular trips to the gym.

“All I do remember is I had to do what I was told,” she said. “I was told I was fat every day. I had to go to the gym. I had to just … I never remember feeling so demoralized. They made me feel like nothing. And I went along with it because I was scared.”

Spears also recounted her experience while performing during her residency in Las Vegas.

“My performances I know were horrible,” she said. “I even wore wigs. All the dancers were doing all these nice, sexy head-flip turns and I had conditioner treatment in my hair and these little caps over my head … because I was just a robot. I didn’t give a f— anymore because I couldn’t go where I wanted to go, I couldn’t have the nannies that I wanted to have, I couldn’t have cash. It was just demoralizing.”

She described herself as being a “machine.”

“I was a f---ing machine, not even human,” she said.

She admitted she once had planned to try to escape the country with an unnamed man who she had been talking to, but was too afraid of how her father might react to make any moves.

“We had it all set up to just leave, and it was a secret relationship. And I said my biggest fear was, ‘What would my dad do, if I did do something wrong?’ What if I felt the country? I feel like they would lock me up or something or really hurt me.”

Spears said she began to get her “spark” back while recording her 2016 album “Glory.”

“At the end of recording 'Glory'– and my son named it – things started kind of taking a turn because I started getting more confidence just for myself,” she said, adding that she had to be careful, however, in front of her family.

“I think with confidence comes enlightenment, which makes you think better,” she continued. “And that’s the last thing they wanted me to do was to actually be better, because then who would be in control then? But it was really tricky because I had to just play this role that everything was okay all the time.”

Spears had been slated to begin a second residency in Las Vegas in 2019 but said things took a turn when she refused to do a dance move in rehearsals.

“It was insane how hard I worked. And the one time I speak up and say no in a rehearsal to a f---ing dance move, they got pissed,” she said.

According to Spears, the next day she was forced to announce on her Instagram account that she was going to a facility because her father had been ill and she needed to seek treatment.

She said her dad threatened to take her to court if she didn’t agree to do what he wanted, telling her “you’re going to lose” and remarking that she didn’t “even have a lawyer” to try to fight him in court.

“I remember my dad calling me on the phone, and I was crying, and I was like, ‘Why are you guys doing this?'” Spears said in the memo. “And I just remember him saying ‘You have to listen to the doctors, the doctors are gonna tell you what to do, I can’t help you now.'”

Spears described the terror she felt inside the facility saying her “heart felt like it was frozen, like it was stuck inside” and describing herself as being in a state of shock.

“I wanted to scream and I wanted to get out,” she said.

Spears said she was finally able to regain her freedom last year with the help of the #FreeBritney movement, which advocated for the singer to be released from the conservatorship.

“The whole thing that made it really confusing for me is these people were on the streets fighting for me,” she said, “But my sister and my mother aren’t doing anything. To me, it was like they secretly, honestly liked me being the bad one, like I was messed up and they kind of just liked it that way.”

She went on to call out her mother Lynne specifically, saying that she had never intervened to try to help her daughter over the years.

“I’m honestly more angry at my mom because I heard when reporters would call her at the time, and ask questions of what was going on, she would go innocently hide in the house and she wouldn’t speak up. There was always like, ‘I don’t know what to say. I just don’t want to say the wrong thing. We’re praying for her,’” Spears said in the revealing audio message. “I feel like she could’ve gotten me a lawyer in literally two seconds … Every time I made contact with a firm, my phone was tapped and they would take my phone away from me.”

Spears’ father, Jamie Spears, has yet to publicly comment on the singer’s latest accusations. In the past, he has denied wrongdoing in relation to his management of her conservatorship.