Sandy Hook killer Adam Lanza boasted about his hatred of humanity, wrote about pedophilia, obsessed over mass murder and mused that he would make a good father someday, according to new documents obtained by the Hartford Courant.
Lanza, who took his own life after murdering his mother and using her guns to massacre 20 children and six staff members at Sandy Hook Elementary School in Newtown, Conn. on Dec. 14, 2012, emerges as a deeply troubled young man whose problems began early in life. The documents reveal a developmental delay in speech that made it difficult for him to communicate with others, which in turn likely bred in him a lack of empathy, according to the Courant.
The documents, which were released by Connecticut State Police following a lawsuit by the newspaper, detail Lanza’s struggles to interact with peers, his fondness for violent video games, his obsession with cleanliness and order and his outright rejection of the larger world, the Courant reports.
“I incessantly have nothing other than scorn for humanity,” he wrote, apparently in an online missive to a fellow gamer, according to the Courant. “I have been desperate to feel anything positive for someone for my entire life.”
The documents include journal entries, school assignments, psychiatrist reports and even a screenplay in which Lanza wrote about a relationship between a child and an older man that also included imagery of murder and gun play, according to the Courant.
Lanza, who suffered from acute social anxiety and was on the autism spectrum, had a combination of lack of empathy, obsession with violence, and access to deadly weapons that proved to be a “recipe for mass murder,” according to a report by Connecticut’s Office of Child Advocate released in 2014.
Lanza’s difficulties began early in life, when his linguistic development was delayed, causing him to be difficult to understand, according to the Courant. In one report from a speech pathologist in New Hampshire, where Lanza and his family lived at the time, 3-year-old Lanza’s speech is described as almost unintelligible, which would cause him to get frustrated and repeat whatever he was trying to say, to the discomfort of his preschool classmates.
He was further isolated due to a severe sensory condition that rendered him sensitive to sounds, light, texture and movement, the Courant reports.
Furthermore, he suffered from extreme germophobia, which made him unwilling to touch everyday objects, such as doorknobs, with his bare hands.
According to notes written by Lanza himself, he was obsessed with routine, and painstakingly catalogued “problems” that set him off, including dirty dishes, bright lights, “the spiders,” and his “corn being too wet,” the Courant reports.
He was also fixated on what he claimed were more than a dozen instances of being raped or molested by doctors in his youth, who he accused of fondling his penis with the consent of his parents, according to the Courant.
“I was coerced into it,” he wrote, according to the Courant. “They felt me all over my body, and it usually culminated in the fondling of my penis. What do each of the adults have in common? They were doctors, and each of them were sanctioned by my parents to do it. This happens to virtually every child without their input into the matter: Their parents sanction it.”
Lanza was also fixated on violence from an early age, according to the Courant. In fifth grade, along with another student, Lanza wrote “The Big Book of Granny,” which clocked in at 52 pages and included scenes of murder and mayhem, including a character who utters the phrase “Let’s go hurt children,” the Courant reports.
The documents come after the FBI released more than 1,500 pages of documents related to its investigation into the shooting last year.
The heavily-redacted documents included reports by agents that were involved in the investigation of the massacre; they offered similar insights into the shooter, but also fell short of providing a definitive motive for the horrific incident.
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