Former NBA star Lamar Odom is opening up about some of the darkest moments of his life in his new memoir, including one occasion where he says he threatened to kill his then-wife, reality TV star Khloe Kardashian, when he was under the influence of drugs.
In his new book, “Darkness to Light,” the 39-year-old athlete wrote that on that particular occasion, he was high on ecstasy and cocaine in his “man cave” when he began hallucinating, PEOPLE reports.
“At that point, I couldn’t tell reality from fantasy. I was on ecstasy and coke. I was sure that people were coming for me. They wanted to get me,” he wrote.
Using a golf club, he began swinging at the walls because he believed there were microphones inside them, he said. It was enough that Kardashian called his friends to check on him, which prompted Odom to fly into a rage once they left. After his wife knocked on the door, he opened it and “grabbed her forcefully by the shoulders, which frightened her,” he said.
“What the f--k are you doing?” he then yelled at her. "You trying to embarrass me in front of my friends? I’ll f--king kill you! You don’t know what I’m capable of!'”
Odom wrote that he later asked for Kardashian’s forgiveness, but the incident was something he deeply regretted.
“I was embarrassed and ashamed,” he wrote, according to PEOPLE. “It was a new low for our relationship and my life… the most regrettable moment in a series of regrettable moments.”
Odom spoke about the disturbing incident during an interview with "Good Morning America" on Tuesday, where he revealed that his then-wife kicked him out of the house after the threat.
“I’m pretty sure she had to be scared at that point in time. I'm thinking about it now, like, I couldn’t believe how I was treating that queen like that,” he said, adding that he felt like he owed his ex-wife and her family an apology, “big time.”
The Kardashians did not respond to a request for comment from ABC News, the outlet reports.
Of his ex-wife, Odom told PEOPLE he has hopes they can be friends.
“I miss the family,” he said. “And I hope we can all be reacquainted one day.”
Odom and Kardashian married in 2009 after one month of dating and even filmed a reality show, “Khloe & Lamar,” during their time together. Kardashian filed for divorce in 2013; that request was dismissed in 2015, however, amid Odom’s health struggles following a catastrophic overdose, but Kardashian filed for divorce again in May 2016 and it was finalized at the end of that year.
While Odom’s book does talk about his life with the Kardashians, he told "Good Morning America" that his story is about much more than fame.
"It's not a story just about...the Kardashians, or drugs. It's really a story of triumph, and overcoming obstacles,” he said, adding, "And tragedy. Overcoming tragedy."
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