Chrissy Teigen has it all. The supermodel seems happy with a thriving career, awesome husband in John Legend and adorable daughter, Luna, who was born last year. But beneath the surface, she's been suffering postpartum depression. The 31-year-old opened up to Glamour in a personal essay about her battle.
"I seem like the happiest person on the planet," she writes. "I had everything I needed to be happy. And yet, for much of the last year, I felt unhappy." Teigen says that she had a great pregnancy with daughter Luna but she always felt depressed. "But I was different than before. Getting out of bed to get to set on time was painful. My lower back throbbed; my shoulders—even my wrists—hurt. I didn’t have an appetite. I would go two days without a bite of food, and you know how big of a deal food is for me. One thing that really got me was just how short I was with people."
She initially thought that her unhappiness was just part of being a new mom. "I couldn’t figure out why I was so unhappy. I blamed it on being tired and possibly growing out of the role: 'Maybe I’m just not a goofy person anymore. Maybe I’m just supposed to be a mom.'"
Teigen was eventually diagnosed with postpartum depression by her doctor and she's still grappling with coming to terms. "I also just didn’t think it could happen to me. I have a great life. I have all the help I could need: John, my mother (who lives with us), a nanny. But postpartum does not discriminate. I couldn’t control it. And that’s part of the reason it took me so long to speak up: I felt selfish, icky, and weird saying aloud that I’m struggling. Sometimes I still do."
She has been seeing a therapist and is on antidepressants now. "I’m speaking up now because I want people to know it can happen to anybody and I don’t want people who have it to feel embarrassed or to feel alone."
Read Chrissy's entire essay here.
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