Lamar Odom is telling it all. In a moving essay penned for The Players' Tribune, the former NBA baller opened up about his struggle with drug addiction and his tumultuous marriage to Khloe Kardashian.
Odom admitted to being a "scumbag" to Khloe during their time together, cheating on her multiple times and basically being the opposite of a good husband.
"One of the darkest places I’ve ever been was when I was in a motel room, getting high with this chick, and my wife (at the time) walked in. That probably was like rock bottom," Odom wrote.
"I'm a millionaire. I'd made it out of Jamaica, Queens, and won two NBA titles. And I'm in a motel, with some random person, doing coke," he recalled. "But I just wanted to get high with this girl, and I had no other place to go. I couldn't take her home. You know, I was being a scumbag. Nothing else I got for that. No excuses. No bullsh*t. That's just the truth. My d*ck and my habit took me down all the roads that you don't ever wanna go down."
Odom explained that during that period of his life, he was "doing coke every day. Pretty much every second of free time that I had, I was doing coke. I couldn't control it. I didn't want to control it."
These days, he's on the straight and narrow, and seems to be putting all his focus into keeping his life on the right track. He credits his three kids (from a previous relationship) as his inspiration to keep his head in the right place.
"I just look at their faces for a few minutes, and it's like a reminder of what life is supposed to be about," he wrote. "I feel warm. I feel an energy. I feel love."
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