Chris Watts, the man who is serving out a life sentence in a Wisconsin prison over the murders of his pregnant wife and two young daughters, revealed that he talks to photos of his deceased family every morning and every night, according to newly released audio interviews.
Watts sat down with investigators from the Frederick Police Department, the Colorado Bureau of Investigation, and the FBI on Feb. 18 for a five-hour interview, which was released Thursday.
Among his speaking about the grisly details of his killings — Watts strangled his wife Shanann, 34, to death before using blankets to kill his two young daughters, Celeste, 3, and Bella, 4 — and his marriage-ruining affair with Nichol Kessinger, Watts slipped in details about his love for his wife and kids.
During the first part of the interview, Watts spoke about feeling remorse for cheating on his wife: “In the back of my head I was just telling myself, ‘What are you doing?’ Every time I open up my phone I can see pictures of my wife and my kids. Just like, what am I doing? Every time I was with [Kessinger] it was like a blinder over my face,” he said.
Watts added that he reads a book he used to read to Celeste at night to the photos, as well as some scripture. Chris' father, Ronnie Watts, previously told ABC News that his son "knows the Bible inside and out."
"Every time I see pictures of them I don’t know how this could have happened. Being a dad was the best part of my life,” Watts said later on in the interview.
He also discussed his mindset as he was driving his dead wife’s corpse out to an oil field, where he would also ultimately kill his two young daughters and stuff their bodies in separate oil tanks.
“The whole trip out there it was like I wasn’t thinking. In my mind right now I’m thinking back and hoping that I wasn’t coherent enough to make that decision to know that I was going to kill my girls,” Watts recalled. “No father would do anything to his blood and flesh, but I did that. I just don’t understand how it happened.”
Watts said that he wanted to be a dad his whole life, and that the whole ordeal still doesn’t make any sense to him.
“I always think to myself, was I even a dad at one point? I don’t know,” he said, adding that it’s going to “take a long time to forgive myself…I hope one day they’ll forgive me, too.”
Last year, Watts was sentenced to life in prison without parole for the murders.
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