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'I Love You,' What Did Conrad Roy Tell Michelle Carter In His Suicide Note

Conrad Roy told Michelle Carter that he loved her in his final notes. 

By Gina Tron

Michelle Carter was the last person to speak to Conrad Roy III before he took his own life. But he also left her a written suicide note.

The suicide note, referenced in Hulu’s new miniseries “The Girl From Plainville,” is based on real life. Roy's family found a notebook  after his death that contained three pages worth of final messages to Carter and to his family. 

In one of the notes, which was introduced as evidence in Carter’s 2017 trial, Roy tells his girlfriend that he will “forever be in” her heart. The note reads: 

To Michelle

Keep strong in tough times. You taught me how to be strong and carry on. This life has been too challenging and troublesome to me but I’ll forever be in your heart and we will meet up someday in Heaven. Put your best foot forward and your chin held up high. Our songs. Listen to them and remember me. Take anything from my room at my moms/dads to remind you of me. You’ll get there, I’m sorry about everything. I am messed up I guess. I wish I could express my gratitude but I feel brain dead. I love you and greatly appreciate ur effort and kindness towards me. Keep your heart beating, and keep pushing forward. Go on YouTube type in Rocky Balboa quote, and let the light guide you.

I <3 you

Carter, now 25, was sentenced to serve 15 months for her role in Roy's 2014 death, after being convicted in 2017 of involuntary manslaughter. A judge determined that Carter, who was 17 at the time, was culpable in 18-year-old Roy's suicide after she encouraged him to die by suicide in text messages. She also told him over the phone to get back into his truck, which was filling up with carbon monoxide. Carter was released from prison in January of 2020 on good behavior and has appealed her conviction to the U.S. Supreme Court.

In addition to writing a note to Carter, Roy also addressed his father in his final communications.

“I’m sorry I wasn’t the boy you wanted. I can’t take the pain,” Roy wrote. “I did this to finally be happy.”

He urged his family to not dwell on his death.

“Everyone be happy,” he wrote. “Work hard for me because that’s what I want and live life to fullest, even though I am cutting it short.”

Roy also wrote, "I understand how much everyone loves me but love can't save me from me," along with a frowning face.